the story of us.

Hands over my head thinking 'what else could go wrong?'
Would've stayed in bed, how can a day be so long?

Never believed that things happen for a reason

But how this turned out, you moved all my doubts, oh believe

That for you I'll do it all over again

Do it all over again

So I'd do it all over again
For you
(Again-bruno mars)

i don't give a shit.

I still have those words on my cell phone. The words that I want to send it to you through the blackberry messanger that night. I pondered my intention to do that because I still loved you.things change, ppl change, u change. we used to talk for hours and now i'm lucky to talk to u for a few minutes a day. u used to want to be with me and u make it seems like u're always to busy.i remember the jokes,laughs,story we shared. and i doubt u remember any of that. there's something that made me uncomfortable with u since that day. everything changed just like that, everything just happens without a definite reason.u're changing and i can't accept that.i'm tryin but i can't.I don't know what happened to u so that u change so quickly. When I asked about it to u, u just stay quiet or divert our conversation,or u just yelled at me like "hellyeah,ppl always change you just have to adapt yourself to the situation'' and the worst are u mad at me for no reason. I just want the certainty of this relationship, i mean why should we continue this relationship if u're not even love me anymore.It seems like u don't want me to be with u anymore . Everyday i'm tryin to understand u and tryin to adapt with the situation just like u wanted me to do, but u kno what? i just can't hold it any longer dude. my heart still loving u but i doubt do u still love me or not. Untill i need someone to talk to that night and guess what? yeah you're not there, i don't even kno where were u that night.Ireally can't take this shit anymore, i'm so done with all this bullshit, till the night that i called u and asked u to end this relationship. At the end..i decided to get back with u and give u a second chance. BUT YEAH i'm in the same old shit,same feeling,but different timing. how could u be so mean nan? until finally I was very tired with everything, and discuss this prob with u. u decided to end this relationship with anger. at the time I'm confused, to feel what. on the first side I feel happy because i don't have to hold this pain any longer. but on the other side I feel sad, because I'm still loving u, but we're done so there's nothing i can do but cry. I get the message that morning and it was from u. u say u're sorry. but I'm not sure if what u say is true or not. until the day, u were asked to come back to me. I'm so confused at the time. I really need time to think about it. until finally I've got the answer. but first, I want u to feel what I felt during this time. and yes, what I wanted was successful. and finally we're get back. yeah, I hope this is the last, and I hope you're not gonna make me disapponted anymore.because there will be no third chance.

bye bloggyoggy thanks for reading.♥